So here I am. When people ask, "Why London?" my answer is usually, "Why not?!" Yes, I dreamed of living here as a child. And I've loved it both times I visited, wishing I could stay longer. But in the end, it's like this: I was driving to Iowa last summer, feeling confronted by my lackluster life, and longing to create something new, when I found myself saying out loud, "I want to move to London."
If you've ever tried this, you know how dangerous it is to actually speak something out loud. Even if there's no one else around, you can't pretend you didn't hear yourself say it. And as soon as I heard it, something shifted inside me. It's a shift I recognize from a few other times in my life, like when I found I'd be living in Hong Kong after college. Or when I knew I wanted to become a cat-mom. Big, life-changing things. :) But you "know" in a way that doesn't come with too many reasons or explanations.
In the year I spent planning and preparing for this move, I met a number of UK-born folks whose dream it was to make a new life in the U.S. These connections were especially precious, as we had an instant kinship. Of course I wanted to move to England. What's to explain?
But then I got to thinking--what is it with those of us who seem bent on living somewhere other than the country of our birth? A restlessness? A crazy notion that everything will be better "over there?" An irrepressible sense of adventure or simply boredom with the familiar?
The closest I can come to an explanation, for those who require one, is that I moved to London for love. And now that I'm here, that notion is confirmed every day: double decker red buses, centuries old houses converted to apartments, rose gardens and gilded trash cans, a ridiculous number of different coin denominations, screen-less windows, polite nods and more tea towels than any one person could ever use. Even when this place drives me crazy, I still can't get enough of it.
And isn't that, my friends, what love truly is?
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american in london
united states--or kingdom
finds herself at home
